I'm leaving for India in 120 days.
See that picture to the left? It is not India; it is a park in Paris, and that is Caeli. So why publish it? It is rather evocative of the thoughts running through my head on this St. Patrick's Day.
The overgrowth on the path represents my frustration and confusion. What should I pack? Where am I going? when do I get shots? What shots do I really need?
Caeli walking away? Easy one. As soon as I return from India, she leaves for college.
The tunnel-like atmosphere is both my hope to see at least one cave in India as well as the tunnel vision I have experienced concerning this trip. There have been times when I have focused too much on part of the experience and forgot the true objective. Thankfully, I have reading material and tasks which keep me grounded.
If you look at the handles of the pathway, they are pointing out. This represents the lack of support I feel - but not for the trip. As I sit here, my husband is hospitalized for a potentially lethal issue. I am choking on my fear. Because I am the marginalized one, I get no support in times like these. Because it is also Spring Break, I have time to get my focus back.
And for those who are new to me - Caeli is my daughter. Her name is pronounce "Kay-Lee." The spelling is the Latin word for "heaven."
Addendum - Ten minutes after posting, two things happened - Three scarves I had ordered were delivered, and my husband called to say he is being released from the hospital to continue therapy at home. As a believer in signs, I see this as a good thing. A very good thing.
See that picture to the left? It is not India; it is a park in Paris, and that is Caeli. So why publish it? It is rather evocative of the thoughts running through my head on this St. Patrick's Day.
The overgrowth on the path represents my frustration and confusion. What should I pack? Where am I going? when do I get shots? What shots do I really need?
Caeli walking away? Easy one. As soon as I return from India, she leaves for college.
The tunnel-like atmosphere is both my hope to see at least one cave in India as well as the tunnel vision I have experienced concerning this trip. There have been times when I have focused too much on part of the experience and forgot the true objective. Thankfully, I have reading material and tasks which keep me grounded.
If you look at the handles of the pathway, they are pointing out. This represents the lack of support I feel - but not for the trip. As I sit here, my husband is hospitalized for a potentially lethal issue. I am choking on my fear. Because I am the marginalized one, I get no support in times like these. Because it is also Spring Break, I have time to get my focus back.
And for those who are new to me - Caeli is my daughter. Her name is pronounce "Kay-Lee." The spelling is the Latin word for "heaven."
Addendum - Ten minutes after posting, two things happened - Three scarves I had ordered were delivered, and my husband called to say he is being released from the hospital to continue therapy at home. As a believer in signs, I see this as a good thing. A very good thing.